alter-insanities (like thats a real word)

That final day...

2012-01-22T23:05:00.000-10:00

Tonight, I just said goodnight to my sweet 91 year old Nana (not my grandmother but someone just as dear). As I sat thru the discourse I realized that I don't want my funeral to be like every other funeral that I have attended since I can remember. Yes a funeral is a time for mourning and remembering our loved one that has passed; I just don't want my funeral to be so somber. Within the 2 1/2

Day 2 of No Soda!

2011-03-10T14:15:00.005-10:00

Sitting here trying so hard not to fall asleep at work =/. I know.. I didnt goto sleep last night like I said I would... and now... I'm exhausted. I had to turn up the volume on my iPod to wake myself up a bit. For now... it'll do.. but I know in a lil' bit... I'll have to find a spot in the break room to take a quick cat nap. Actually, I should get up and walk around the office a couple times...

Reality can be a real bummer...

2011-02-15T19:52:00.007-10:00

So... I had an appointment with my cardiologist today... and I have to say that he really puts things in a manner that makes me depressed! I mean... I know I have a heart problem... otherwise he wouldn't have referred me for a d@ng defibrillator... duh! I think he was a lil' upset that the EP (electrophysist) prescribed another medication to add on to the billions that I'm already taking. I

a Better explanation of Dilated Cardiomyopathy

2011-02-15T10:36:00.006-10:00

Thank you Texas Heart Institute! Your explanation is much more clearer than what I could've ever explained... LOL. Clearly I don't understand much of my condition... so obviously its hard for me to explain to anyone else. I mean... I guess its that serious that I needed to undergo surgery to receive an ICD (Implantable Cardio Defibrillator- see previous post). Dilated Cardiomyopathy.. pfft! I

My incision...

2011-02-05T23:45:00.006-10:00

Here's a couple pics of the incision from the surgery. It looks a lot better now than it did a week or so ago. It's got that stuff they put on after surgery... once the wound heals... the glue disappears. It doesn't hurt so much anymore. Keeping it iced with an ice pack helped tremendously. I still use an ice pack every now and then when it starts to hurt. There's a lot of healing going on... on

My first ICD...

2011-02-05T03:00:00.005-10:00

This is my implant. Under went surgery and got it implanted on 1/5/2011. Nineteen days later... the bugger went off like a cell phone does when its set on vibrate mode... scared the crap out of me. A day later I was back in the docs office where I was informed that I needed to go back in the operating room to replace a faulty lead(wire). This 2nd time around wasn't nearly as frightening to me as

Too young to have Congestive Heart Failure...

2011-02-03T02:07:00.006-10:00

Two years ago I was diagnosed with Cardiomyopathy. After numerous tests and trips to numerous doctors' offices, I'm still at a loss. I'm still having a hard time wrapping my mind around it all. I'm not dealing very well with the fact that I have a very serious condition and a very very weak heart. My ejection fraction is 20-25%. What does that mean? It means my heart is only pumping out 20-25% of

1 Corinthians 9:19-23

2010-10-21T14:16:00.005-10:00

"I am not anyone's slave. But I have become a slave to everyone, so I can win as many people as possible. When I am with the Jews, I live like a Jew to win Jews. They are ruled by the Law of Moses, and I am not. But I live by the Law to win them. And when I am with people who are not ruled by the Law, I forget about the Law to win them. Of course, I never really forget about the law of God. In

you must seek to find change...

2010-10-18T09:37:00.003-10:00

You always hear people say be the change that you wanna see... sometimes thats not enough... and most of the time we are too weak to make those changes on our own. We need the strength of the Lord... surrender to Him and ask Him to make those changes that you want to see... He'll change you from the inside out!Ask, and you will receive. Search, and you will find. Knock, and the door will be

in Your Name i pray...

2010-09-30T15:31:00.003-10:00

Dear Lord, my Father, my God,As your humble servant I ask that You be with my father in his time of need. Protect him from harm; give him strength when he is weak, light for his dark hours, healing when he is sick. Open his heart to your spirit; fill him with Your love and compassion. Bring him peace and calm and lift the spirit of weariness from him. With You Lord all things are possible, for

Could you be the one?

2010-03-20T23:27:00.011-10:00

We barely even speak and yet I'm intoxicated by your being. the unspoken words hidden in between the lines... an uncertain connection waiting to ignite like a chemical reaction. That smirk that you wear... it's just a dare...taunting,teasing and at times very misleading... confusion sets in... yet I sit and wonder... Could you be the one?

New Beginings...

2010-03-08T19:48:00.003-10:00

Life is a challenge... forever changing and bringing new beginings... some even call them second chances. Today, I realized that I have been given a second chance. A second chance to live. I still have a few kinks to work out.. but its nothing that I can't handle. Its about making the right choices. I may have lost my ability to have children... but it doesn't make me any less of a woman. Nor has

When it rains... it pours...

2009-07-05T20:19:00.006-10:00

My life has been turned upside down. It just seems that when things couldn't have gotten any worse... somehow life finds a way... and the walls you've surrounded yourself with come crumbling down around you. In my family... I am the strong one. The one that keeps everyone together and makes sure everything is right. I keep the peace between siblings and I'm that bridge between both parents who

Sweet Sorrow??

2009-03-26T20:32:00.005-10:00

Parting is such sweet sorrow they say... but where's the sweetness if you never see that person again? A good friend of mine is going thru a tough time right now... her grandmother passed. Hearing the news brought all sorts of memories and emotions to surface. Remembering the passing of my own grandmother earlier this year brought tears to my eyes once again. It was a shock that I reacted in such

Courage to refuse... (Gaza... the saga continues)

2009-01-16T18:38:00.012-10:00

There still is hope after all. Praise the Lord... Amen! Right now... the Local and National news have been focusing on the upcoming Inaugural ceremony. There may be a mention of Israel, Hamas and Gaza... but not much focus. No one talks about it long enough to inform the citizens of the United States of what's happening. We know that this is an on going war for centuries and that they fight for

for those times in my life...

2009-01-09T14:05:00.006-10:00

Sunset or Sunrise? I found out last night that my grandmother passed in her sleep. The same as grandpa did. They went peacefully. I think that's how I'd like to go. In my sleep... dreaming of some kind of wonderful. At least I hope my grandma was dreaming of something beautiful and peaceful. ****************I started this post last Friday and it's now Monday. I could say that I was extremely

Israel, Hamas, The Gaza Strip... the saga continues

2009-01-04T11:18:00.004-10:00

Again... I can't help but stay glued to the television for the latest updates on what's happening half way around the world. War is terrible and in the end it doesn't matter who won the battle. The losses encurred during the fight is immeasurable. I feel both Hamas and Israel should cease fire for 24 hours so the people of Gaza can evacuate. I understand that leaflets were released over Gaza,

LOVE?

2009-01-04T01:02:00.008-10:00

Love... nope... I haven't found him yet. But I have found Love in many different forms. Or atleast I've been reminded of what I forgot long ago. My family keeps growing and growing... with brother-in-laws and sister-in-laws... not to mention the baby boom that has hit. LOL! All within a year... two beautiful nephews and one gorgeous neice! And I know that I'll be seeing more of them. I can't

The Gaza... Israel... Hamas... its all political cr@p!

2009-01-03T23:54:00.007-10:00

I get it... I mean... what's happening is terrible. I can't even imagine what it's like to live in fear. Not knowing if my home will be destroyed by missiles or rockets. No food... no water... I get it... and I'm just thankful that I've never had to experience war. It's a terrible thing what governments do... putting people in the middle of war... let alone drafting young men & women to fight...

My College!!

2008-12-05T15:53:00.004-10:00

Hahaha! Okay... I was looking for some inspirational images... and came across the one above. Of course I had to post and talk about it. I mean seriously... college is great... I attended... took a break and never went back (really I should). But there are some things in Life... that you will never find or come across in a text book. Professors will speak of them... but you will never truly

Life's connections...

2008-12-05T15:09:00.007-10:00

Life's connections... what is that? Connected to what? How do we stay connected as humans? I dunno. Email? LOL! Well... seriously... that is one way of staying connected with someone. Chat... another... phone... and still yet more technology. I love it. I love how our lives have grown due to technology. All that technology and yet... we still need that physical connection. There is nothing like

I miss you...

2008-12-04T11:37:00.003-10:00

What a day... and it's not even over yet. Today's not a bad day... lots of things going on here at work... things that I wish hadn't happen... but they did. I can't control it... so I accept it... and change what I can. Thoughts of an old love has clouded my mind today. I miss him. It hurts... but not as much as I thought it would. It doesn't hurt as much as a previous lost love... but maybe its

It's Aloha Friday!!

2008-11-14T13:11:00.003-10:00

I'm at work and it's lunch time. First thing this morning the sky opened up and well... let's just say that it opened up inside the break room here at work as well... LOL! Now the damn carpet is soaked... and the rain must've shorted something because the stupid fire alarm was triggered. Thank goodness for umbrellas... besides... the rain had already started to subside by the time I got out of

Well doesn't this suck @ss!

2008-11-12T15:47:00.002-10:00

Alright... so I've been better. How was I supposed to know that I would be diagnosed with something benign... but could still lead to cancer!?!?! Endometrial Hyperplasia. That's what they call it. Need a bookworm definition?? Here you go:Endometrial hyperplasia is an increase in the number of cells in the lining of the uterus. It is not cancer. Sometimes it develops into cancer. Heavy menstrual

And I thought it couldn't get any better...

2008-10-14T21:56:00.002-10:00

Here's the live version to my new favorite song. I'm not even going to try to convince any of you that this is Ms. Furtado's best song to date. I'll let her vocals and musical talent speak for itself. It's simply breath taking and leaves me speechless!I'm utterly in love with the live version... I wish it was on an album somewhere! **That was a huge hint to her record label and producers...

Because I can't get enough of it!!!

2008-10-14T19:27:00.003-10:00

I honestly cannot get enough of this song!! Alright... so the album has been on the market for awhile... and just recently I discovered this song. First a good friend of mine introduced me to a song titled "Te Busque" ... which I fell in love with as well. So... while at work... I borrowed her CD... listened to "Te Busque"... then started scanning the rest of the CD. I came across "Showtime" and

MIA - DeLon - zzz33333

2008-08-09T23:19:00.006-10:00

3 very interesting videos i came across browsing YouTube. I first heard the Paper Planes song on the radio at work. The beat is what draws you in and well... I wasn't really paying attention to the lyrics because I didn't quite understand what she was saying. I figured I'd remember the title and search YouTube when I got home... and the following is what I found. Below is the video and lyrics...

BOOOO HOOOO...

2008-08-08T10:26:00.002-10:00

So... my posts are not interesting. First of all, I never said it was... LOL!! You can read it... or not... the choice is up to you. Regardless of your opinions... I will continue to post randomly. Again these are my day to day insanities and what not. If you wanted something informational than you're definitely on the wrong page. If you wanted something exciting or entertaining... again..

SMOKER'S CORNER?

2008-08-07T23:25:00.003-10:00

So... this is the corner... the infamous tree and lamp post... this is where we have a meeting of the minds. Where the real CEO's meet... LOL (whatevers)!! I don't know about the rest of the world... but where I live... a law was passed stating that smokers needed to be 20 feet away from any window, door or over-hang. And this is it for us. Fortunately for me... I had to quit smoking. If I

Fishies!!!

2008-08-07T22:55:00.009-10:00

Here's Goldie!! About a week ago... or so... Goldie was given to me. One of my bestfriends left the island to pursue higher achievements and left his goldfish in my care. This blog is specifically for him... so he knows that Goldie is alright and is enjoying his new friends. He was a bit neurotic the first day, but then I quickly realized that he was just nervous to be in a new home. I gave him 2

Random??

2008-08-06T16:26:00.003-10:00

I think so. None of my posts are ever related to one another... if they are...please let me know...'cause I don't see it. Besides... what fun would it be if they were. This is my insanities... the insaneous of posting random crap that just comes to mind out of nowhere!! Anyways... I just created an account at dailyplate.com or whatever... I joined to see how counting calories makes a difference.

Dark Energy? bwaahahaha!!

2008-08-05T22:06:00.002-10:00

Wicked!! Insane!! Totally Syck!! I LOVED IT! I've never heard of that song before watching this performance on the show... let me tell you... I logged onto iTunes and downloaded that shyt. I was hopin' Mark and Chelsie would've been in the top 4 but well... things just didn't quite work out that way. They should've just ended it right there with the top 6 of SYTYCD 2008 season. There's a lot of

WOW!!!

2008-08-04T22:27:00.000-10:00

I totally forgot about this damn blog thing. So it's been about a year or a lil' more give or take a few days... whatever. This is completely insane. I was about to create a new profile, but my email was recognized as already being used... hahaha... lucky for me... I didn't have to start over again. It'll probably take me another year before I post another blog anyway... LOL! There was

I don't even know why I have this blogspot

2007-02-19T11:50:00.000-10:00

I only created this thing because I was trying to leave a comment on another blogspot... and it told me I couldn't because I needed to register.Isn't there such a thing as anonymity? <--did I even spell that right? aahh... who cares... its my spot... I'll spell and write as I please. You'll find that I am not the greatest speller in the world... nor am I a famous writer. So please... do